I am struggling today. Struggling to make healthy choices, struggling to be cheerful, struggling to be positive and struggling to just keep my head above water. And the honest truth is, I can't really tell you why. Today is no different from yesterday or the day before. The same realities that I faced yesterday I am facing today. My stress is no greater, my burdens no heavier and my life no more overwhelming. Yet today feels different. Today I have less resources to handle the stress, burdens and priorities. I feel sad, broken, challenged and incompetent.
But the amazing thing is, I still have JOY. It would be so easy to go to these dark places and let the emotions take control and win. But regardless of my inner or outer turmoils, despite the times of feeling helpless and out of control, I have a joy the lives within me. It is the Holy Spirit and my days would be be dark, indeed, without It. I can find joy every day, in any circumstance, because of this presence and I am grateful beyond words.
We all have these days. Days when we just can't see any light. Days when the burdens seem too overwhelming to handle. Days where it's a struggle just to smile. It's part of being human. It's a part of our reality and the world we live in. And today is just one of those days. But I still have joy. And I will face what is left of this day with the knowledge that I will wake up tomorrow to face a beautiful new day, full of hope and promise.
And I will have JOY!